Greetings, programs. I am the ghost. This is a bulleted list of things I think you should know about me at any given moment.
- I’ll be referring to myself as the ghost. Hence, the witty title. It’s how I see myself sometimes. An apparition. What you think you see is not quite what you actually see. More on that in a bit. I had to choose a different username though, because, not surprisingly, theghost was taken. Edit: I’ve changed my mind. Sandra. Sandi for short.
- I was born, raised, and currently live on the eastern seaboard of the USA. Whether I stay here or not in the near future is anybody’s guess at this point.
- I used to be married. We’re still very good friends. That was never our problem. Now, my having extreme difficulty expressing my emotions? That’s a huge one.
- I have a daughter, primary school aged. She’s the light of my life, and the bane of my existence. It’s like every negative aspect of my personality got distilled in to this overly adorable package of hyper-kinetic energy. We’re working on that.
- I am a creative person, with severe problems expressing the creativity. I’ve done a lot of artistic stuff, save for drawing. I can barely draw stick figures.
- I am transgender. Trans woman. You’d never know it by looking at me. The beard (literal) makes it a really tough guess. I know what I am, and I guess I lucked out in the brain chemistry department, because for the most part, I’m fine with the status quo. I’m not saying it doesn’t sometimes hurt. But because it doesn’t hurt as much as some of my peers, not even close, I find it easier. I’m basically a transgender woman passing as a man, which for some reason amuses me to no end to think about it in those terms. Anyway, this is what I meant about what you see isn’t really what you get. I’m sure I’ll talk about this more later, my thinking process (which sort of boils down to “I’m lazy and its sorta convenient to just keep playing like my software matches my hardware”) and those sorts of things. Not to mention that I think a lot of gender stereotypes are ridiculously outmoded and largely based on societal expectations and not reality.
- Because of the whole trans thing, even though I’m staying anonymous, if you do wish to speak to/of me, I’d appreciate it if you’d use feminine pronouns. If you either can’t or won’t, I won’t really hold it against you, but it would just be nice. If I feel you’re not doing it simply because you want to be a dick/bitch/gender neutral ass about it, don’t expect me to respond politely, though.
- I’m sarcastic, cynical, misanthropic, agnostic, and a
pessimistrealist. I’m a (George) Carlin-ite in almost every way, I worship the man for many reasons. This quote of his (an actual one, not a false one) sums up exactly how I feel as well: “I love and treasure individuals as I meet them, I loath and despise the groups they identify or belong to.”